Thursday, June 18, 2015
I read this a few days ago and I just couldn't stop thinking about it or rereading it. I got that feeling you get when you read something and it is just so fitting for you life, maybe at that particular time or maybe at any time. I thought I would share.
Don’t get lost, I tell myself. Just pick up your knees and push. Push a little bit farther, a little bit harder. Don’t push other’s it’s not nice. Don’t push your heart, it won’t heal as fast. Push deeper, though. You could love again.
Remember how lovely it is to be looked at like you’re brand new to someone? Remember looking at someone and feeling the wanting familiarity that comes with holding someone’s face lightly between your palms and kissing them. Above the right eyebrow, scattering kisses across the bridge of their nose. On to their lips. Taste. Remember feeling the hair on the back of their neck against your fingertips for the first time, your how their shoulders square off towards yours and you feel content?
Remember car rides? Well, imagine new ones, and they squeeze your knee, or take your hand and kiss the back near your knuckles. Think about reaching out and brushing the fingers of your left hand against their ear. Sit back, and trust them to drive you where you need to be.
Remember, not always where you must be, but where you need to be, a lookout, or the beach, or maybe just windows down with a good song on going around the block a couple times, or maybe just to the grocery store to pick up two ripe plums. Let the plum juice run down your fingers. Sit on the roof or hood or trunk of the car. Make sure your thigh brushes theirs. Kiss them.
Think about a kitchen table where you share your mornings, and maybe nights. Think about your legs and feet brushing theirs. Think about lazy morning kisses, hand holding. Hugs. Think about the new ones you’ll share. Push yourself to think new, not compare to old. Think about what will make their day better. Your day better. Your day collectively better.
Remember yoga at first, how you felt weak, detached, immovable, always trying to catch your breath? Well, that’s not you anymore, you are constantly focusing yourself for the next move, the next pose trusting that the sequence will play out, that eventually after deepening, lifting, trusting, a bit of a challenge you feel exhausted. Eventually you will lay still, quite, motionless, content.
Eventually love will come again, you’re deepening though, the way you think, feel, the way you exist. Always learn more, challenge more, live more. Don’t get lost. Push, baby. Push. Your effort, that your result only need to effect you. Make yourself proud. Hold yourself to your standard. Don’t brag, explain. Let your passion show your liveliness.
And don’t forget to savor the stretch, don’t forget to savor the kiss, don’t forget through the struggle, it’s a beautiful thing called existing. Revel at the moon, dance or run till your legs tire. Do deep, go fully. Trust yourself. Share that passion for the outer world with someone else. Don’t forget to fill every crack, crevice, hole in your heart… with affection, respect and love for yourself and the people who have made and continue to make you.
Posted by Simply Marilla at 7:15 AM
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
Monday, May 11, 2015
I'm excited about spring, this spring in particular has brought many new beginnings in my life. I am grateful for new experiences, new spaces, meeting new people and some exciting changes at work. Winter is such a hard time, isolating, dark and gloomy, but spring, spring is full of light and hope.
Posted by Simply Marilla at 10:23 AM
Saturday, March 14, 2015
Friday, February 13, 2015
Thursday, February 12, 2015
It's been so cold here, it's supposed to be -8 tonight, yikes. This weather is making it really hard to get out of bed in the mornings. My bed is pretty cozy but I haven't had a headboard in quite awhile because I just never liked the look of one in my room but lately I have been loving wooden headboards. These wooden headboards are so modern and simple yet warm at the same time.
I'm loving this headboard on Etsy and it priced very reasonably.
Posted by Simply Marilla at 9:11 AM
Friday, January 23, 2015
Have you seen this note a boy wrote in response to a girl who asked him if he liked her? What a mature and well thought out response. I wish I knew myself at 18, hell I wish I knew myself now. I feel like I am constantly changing. We all are because life is constantly changing. We never seem to really become the people we thought we were going to become. Instead our taste change, our desires and goals change, our families who surround us change, even our interest change. What I do know as is that time is valuable. We should use our time not only taking care of our necessary responsibilities but spend it with the people we love doing the things we really enjoy doing. As I have gotten older I have learned to say no to things I don't enjoy, which is so to do hard at 18. I have learned to accept that things don't always go your way. Life can be hard and test you in ways you never dreamed possible but it teaches you to "just keep going". I have learned to look at my life with such gratitude. I see all my blessing and I am so thankful for them. Getting to know yourself is a hard lifelong process because we always changing. However, as we get older we learn to decipher through all the bullshit a lot quicker, thank goodness!
Posted by Simply Marilla at 5:51 AM
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
With the New Year upon us and the holidays over, I like everyone else have been thinking about eating healthy. Our usual meals are so boring. I have been trying to come up with some new healthy meals the whole family can enjoy. Lately, I am loving the meal in a bowl trend. This blog,
I Will Not Eat Oyster, which is new to me, has my mouth watering with every picture.
Tracy at Shutterbean seriously makes everything look so delicious, even the quinoa. My goal this year is to make quinoa that actually taste good.
Posted by Simply Marilla at 12:16 PM
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Missing all the family time we had over the holidays, especially my nephew. It has been so rough getting back to our normal routine, we are really struggling this week.
Back to work.
Missing having a fresh tree with lights in the house.
We made Ina Garten's Sunday Rib Roast for Christmas dinner and it was seriously the best prime rib I have ever had. The rib bone is on there but what I did was have the butcher cut the rib bone off but then put it back together with twine, so you get all the flavor but it is way easier to cut and serve. The weird thing is you really only add salt and pepper. I had to hold myself back from adding more seasoning or something because it looked so bland. However, I did add enough salt to create a salt crust. I think that helps keep the meat moist. Honestly, I could eat this every Sunday and I know 3 teenage boys who wish we could eat this every Sunday.
Back to work.
Posted by Simply Marilla at 9:35 AM
Thursday, January 1, 2015
I not a huge fan of resolutions because I feel like they can just add extra pressure to one's life. It's that double edge sword, I mean you always want to be doing better, learning and growing but also you don't want to feel like a failure if you don't reach some unattainable goal you set for yourself on New Year's. I saw this image from Lauren Conrad and I thought this is a good way to narrow down your goals and focus on specific ideas.
Happy New Year!
Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year.
Posted by Simply Marilla at 5:51 PM